Wasting Time On Line or Manifesting?

This essay was inspired by a friend, in an e-mail group I belong to, who asked our group if we believed anything we ever do is truly wasting time. The general consensus was that if you have regrets or are pining away about what you should be doing while you are doing something you would rather do, then that was wasting time. Other than that, if you are doing something you are enjoying, no matter what, then time wasn't wasted, even if it is doing nothing for long periods of time.

I am what some people would call a computer addict. I love being on my computer; I love talking the myriad buddies I have and being in chat rooms sharing my thoughts and honing my debating skills. My favorite event online is sharing with my e-mail groups. I belong to two of them, one of which is much more active and wild, the other mostly sharing of spiritual ideas. That is not to say that the first one doesn't share spiritual ideas, for it does, but it is always wrapped up in insanity. And that, I love. If we combined all the wisdom, love, and humor this particular group shares, I think we could form an excellent prototype of what heaven on earth might look like in reality. This group is what I call a highly non-dysfunctional family. We stick together for the most part, leave when necessary, but have learned to honor each other's viewpoints and differences, and then laugh about it.

For me, the humor is the binding factor. We don't take ourselves too seriously, generally. When that does happen, usually someone will get their feelings hurt and threaten to leave the group, thus punishing everyone for being different than that person thinks they should be. The dynamics in this e-mail group are very amusing. I am hoping to write a book about it. I have already paired up with three different members on starting this book, and we only get as far as, "Oh, what a great idea this would be, to write about cyber relationships." And then nothing else happens. Which is okay, because we know all will happen when it is meant to, and we certainly are NOT wasting any time having our dreams about this with no action.

It is my true belief, that if we follow our joy, keep doing what it is we love doing, no matter what, whether we are getting paid to do it or not, we will be doing it more and more, just by doing it. We are giving to the universe the message that this is what we love doing, and BY GOLLY we are going to do it. When the Universe hears that BY GOLLY, it obliges us. It will keep providing us with more of what we are choosing to do. I am not saying more of what we are wanting to do, praying to do, saying affirmations and lighting candles about doing, I mean CHOOSING. Choosing means DOING, no matter what paradigm of belief you are currently running under.

I love being on my computer, and I choose to do so. I have become a writer and a much better and quicker one by being on line much of the time. This must be what my destiny is, for I love it, am doing it and reaching many in doing so. The second month I was online, I was paid $150.00 for an article I wrote. I never had any previous aspirations of being a writer before my first book (which is unavailable everywhere) was out, two years prior to that. Things just kept falling into my lap telling me I am going to write. I ended up rewriting my book and keep sending it out to people who are in need of some loving parenting/relationship/family advice. I don't get paid for giving out my book, I don't get paid spending time on my computer all day. To me, the payment is knowing that someone needing just that information is getting it, and not having to pay for it. This is my view of an online It Takes A Village.

How is it I can claim I am making a living doing what I do? Somehow, God, The Universe, The Source has made it possible for me to do this. Is it so unusual to think that all we do has to be exchanged for money? Somehow in the big scheme of things, things get done, and the payment isn't always monetary. It is one form of exchange, but by all means not the only one. I exchange what I do for many other benefits. Knowing I help others, connecting to souls who reciprocally enhance each other's existence. I have chosen to do this with joy and passion, much like a musician, who loves his art, will spend hours a day practicing. By the way, I am also a professional musician, but it doesn't get nearly as much of my attention as writing online does, so I don't work up to my potential, but that is okay. I am fine with the level of musicianship at which I find myself.

Since I have chosen for several years now to do what I love doing, telling the universe I love doing this, and DOING it, no matter what others say I SHOULD be doing, I keep getting what I choose.

My husband is a doctor, a very fine alternative doctor, and is happy when I am happy, and happy for me to let him do what makes him happy. Because of his salary, I am able to be at home, on the computer, nurturing what I do. One day, it is going to bring in a lot of money, because it is my intention to do seminars and lectures on my topic of spiritual/holistic parenting. Right now it is an intention; I am not yet choosing it. I want my youngest son to be in school first, before I put that into motion. However, by being online much of the time, I am making important connections for when I do choose to do this. Not wasting time.

My four year old is at home with me, and he has become so imaginative and makes up the most incredible games. He has also become quite a sculptor with clay. I don't spend the day organizing his play, learning, naps, etc. He has figured out much on his own.

My older son loves to play video games and create with LEGOs. He also plays violin-doesn't practice as much as I would like him to, but I would much rather he continue to love playing as he does, than to nag him incessantly and turn his playing into a chore with memories of Mom spazzing out. I don't nag him about how much he does of either. He sees me doing what I love; I let my kids do what they do with passion and zeal. I am amazed at how he reads up on strategies and applies them to his game playing. There is much learning to be done with the video games. Considering he is still on the active (not able to sit still) side of beingness, his concentration on these games is amazing and very good for him, I believe. By my allowing him to excel as he wishes and allowing my younger son to create with his imagination, by their observing of me following my joy, many subtle lessons are being learned by all. My sons wasting time? I don't think so. We are moving into the future, and many people will be doing things with their eyes, hands, and imaginations. You never know, my older son may be instrumental in the video game business. It could be his life's destiny. Who am I to say?

The way our home is constructed, we all do our thing within fairly close proximity. My husband passionately is writing three books on his computer in the family room, where my two sons do their thing, and I in my room with the door open to the family room. It creates a sense of being together, because we can talk to each other at any time, yet, we are all doing what we love doing.

Is this wrong, to not interact physically? I don't think so - different, yes. Hugs and laughter are rampant, since we are all so energized by doing what we love doing. Is it wrong, that I don't diligently take my kids here and there and everywhere for their learning? No. It is different, and subtle messages are being learned as well. Maybe we are learning that being together with our families and not having to go outside the home to look for excitement is fine, too. It is just different. Some people love the outdoors, and teach their children the ways of nature, and that is fine, too. If we are allowed to share our joys and passions, then we are teaching our children that whatever they are interested in they should follow, as well. Life is so chaotic these days; parents feel they have to take their kids everywhere so they can choose what they love doing, and in the meantime, the parent gets worn out and short-fused. Where is the happiness in the home with this scenario?

The one thing I do notice, which I think is the most important of all, is that we are all happy. We laugh a lot, we make light of potentially tense situations. The children feel very secure, very loved, very honored. They are learning how to learn, as we silently oversee, not what to learn by forcing them to do things we think they should be doing.

You may say that this is all well and good, my husband earns enough money that I can do this. Well, it is my firm belief, that when your life is your joy and truth, and you cause other people to have what you want in your life, you bring to you just what you are giving away. There was a time I was running out of money, yet I gave money away. I had a car and some of my friends didn't, so I let them borrow my car. I had food, others didn't, so I volunteered to deliver meals to shut ins. If I lived in scarcity consciousness, believing that I didn't have enough, if I wasn't grateful every day for all I did have, I could still be under the false impression that you have to do things you don't enjoy doing because there is never enough.

I truly believe that I drew to myself circumstances which enabled me to do what I love doing, such as manifesting a husband who could support me in doing what I love. And I also told my husband, that he can stop doing what he is doing any time, and I will be totally happy with it and support him, too. I am slowly making more and more money every year at writing and music, and one day, in the not too distant future, will be making a lot of my money. And when my husband decides it is time he doesn't have to work to support everyone by being a doctor, practicing traditional medicine within the HMO system, that will be when divine timing lines up, and I will be making money in joy, doing what I love, and he will then be able to stay home and write to his heart's content. But he can choose to leave medicine now, and I am sure that we would be able to manage where we both are doing what we love. He just needs to believe this yet.

Never, ever underestimate the power of doing what you love, regardless of your life situation, and being grateful for all you have. It is a winning combination. Choose it now! Don't want it now, but CHOOSE it.

As for wasting time? I have met many wonderful souls on the computer, and have spent hours and hours talking to many and helping them to experience what I have. I have sent countless things in the mail to them, mainly books and things I make. I have done much online counseling, not because I feel I have to, but because I want to. It makes me feel good to help people see their inner beauty and tell them of the very easy way they can make their life work for them the way it is meant to. I also just spend hours talking to friends with no goals in mind, other than just sharing with people I enjoy sharing with. I also have met the connections online that are pivotal in my upcoming career. I wouldn't have if I didn't spend time hanging out online. And I suspect that people who are online who are not writers, are even making very important connections for their destinies as well as just sharing camaraderie.

Now you ask someone else to assess my situation, and they would have all kinds of opinions. But we can never judge and walk in another's shoes without much inaccuracy.

One other thing, by extending love, living in joy, showing gratitude, and CHOOSING to do what you love, you create situations that bring you more of what you are choosing. For instance, I have always wanted someone to cook for me, as I don't enjoy doing it, and I am not crazy about day to day housework and laundry. I have manifested in my life a beautiful lady who comes here and does that, and also helps with the children. Her main duty is to care for my mother who now lives with us, and is on oxygen 24 hours a day. If I hadn't extended my home to my mother, this situation wouldn't have been created. She works half time for my mother and half time for us, and we give her what my mother would have given us for rent/food/utilities. She has enough work, my mother is treated like a queen, and I have even more time to become a better writer, counselor and musician, plus, now that the kids adore her, I have someone in place for when it is time for me to travel and give seminars. I couldn't have figured out this scenario any better had I tried to do it consciously, myself.

I wouldn't have been able to find this treasure of a lady if I closed my heart to my Mom and insisted she go to assisted living. If I hadn't given my car, my money, and my time to others when I was low on funds myself, perhaps I wouldn't have attracted a husband who could support me while I discovered my talents.

The Beatles had it right: LOVE, LOVE, LOVE...............All you need is love, All you need is love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my addition: There is no such thing as wasting time, so do what you love, guilt-free!!!