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AVANT SOUL

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Through the Bushes:
A Philosophical Look At Survival Through the Next Four Years



Moment By Moment

I ask for only one moment of your time
      and then you may return
      to that familiar hallway of mirrors

      Where you want the changes
                         and you want them now

Some say pregnancy occurs quickly
      but how long did conception take before that moment appeared,
      ONLY ONE MOMENT

And how long after the baby is born, before your life is back in hyperdrive?

I ask for only one moment of your time, says your secret self
      ONLY ONE MOMENT

Think of it. The strength which you have newly found,
      can you remember that precise instant
      when you awakened after being asleep?

The strength which is lasting occurs day by day.

AND WHAT ABOUT THAT SELF
      you say you are becoming?

      You are a fool if you deprive this moment
For a self who is not yet conceived,

If you say, oh, I will be happy in the future
      when I've lost the weight
      when I've gotten the girl or boy
      when I've gotten my break
      when I've made my name

ARE YOU THEN GOING TO HOLD THE FUTURE RANSOM      
      for yourself that has not yet even been born?

I ask for only a moment of your time.

Then you may return to your whirling dervishes,
      the activities and tasks and cries of the hour
      which regularly ask for your name.

I DO NOT KNOW YOU. Verily, some could say
      that I know not myself.

But what then of this stranger who shares your bed,
      who you are becoming? If you are awake

      And if you are not asleep, then tell me

      why is it
That all of us, yes, you and you
And you there, glued to your trillions of Emails

      why is it
      that all of us don't embrace
      our secret selves

JUST AS WE ARE,
AND WAIT
      for some future that hasn't arrived

When we have lost the weight,
Or begun the exercise program,
Or found that one single FLIPPING INSTANT
            To FORGIVE the one family member who was so unkind?

Tell me. I'm only an unknown poet pounding at your Email door
      playing the part of another moment in eternity's mirrors

Reminding you

That the changes you seek are like water

      CUTTING THROUGH STONE

Oh how I hate that. I want it all now!
But time doesn't stop for my expectations

And the recognition we might all crave
Is blessed in this single moment. I ask only for one moment

      for you to remember

These changes are not you. You are here and now and alive
      and most of you are breathing.

                                    There!
Take a deep breath!
Feel your ribs expand

The air is free, God knows we suffer terribly for it
      for all the crap that goes whistling through it
      for all the electronic attitudes and signals and broadcasts

AND JUST PLAIN EXHAUST

As we hurry, worriedly,
      to the next moment, waiting to arrive.

You're here! And after this Email is gone
      or deleted
      or placed in that peculiar file of things to read
      that you never quite get to, remember -

You have already woken up. Yes I know

      I can hear it now

Water is cutting through stone

Washing over pavement,
Gurgling at our ridiculous airs and announcements,

As it carves through granite,       or in love reaches at last
      through just one more rigid, unforgiving mind . . . .

Water is like Spirit, and what a spirited lot are all of you

Logging on to your Emails, just in case

      You might miss that little gem
      That will cast a bit of bejeweled light upon your days.

Who am I? I am no one
The same no one you ignored these months and years,

The same secret self saying
You would be happy, but only if you had the changes. . .

And the changes you seek are like water
      cutting through the stony abyss of clockwork patterns,
      coursing through the bloodstream of your body

Reminding you to breathe. What a concept!

Take another breath, just for me.

Now go to the mirror, and repeat, those of you that have made it this far,

I love you just as you are, and you are a ravishing fool
      To think that you could deprive
      THIS MOMENT BY MOMENT

Waiting for the change
      that already is here

      the awakening that already has come.



This moment is asking for your tenderness
      and perhaps a more lasting stroke of kindness
      and possibly the hardest thing of all

To see yourself perfect as you are, already

becoming awake

changing as surely as the strength

which occurs

moment

by

moment

day by day,

breath by breath,

hour by hour,

hard

play

by

soft

play

Embrace your destiny now
Embrace it all

Even that which has stopped you
Even that which has been cruel and unsettling:

      It's only another unawakened moment

      and surely, beloved,

      you will find a way around it

just

like

water

finds

a

way

to

reach

its journey, flowing

       knowing

             that

                  moment

                         by

                               moment



                                           you have already arrived


(Copyright 2001 by Darius Gottlieb - No reproduction without express permission from the author)

Letter to the Author at CelloMorpheus@aol.com

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