Earlier today, I was at work, just chillin' in the moment, doing what I was doing and letting that be all there was. It was one of the better tasks that I do at the shop and it was late in the day, so I was just easing into it. A co-worker was doing the same thing in another part of the room.

She looked up at the clock and then made some comment about having another whole hour to go. She seemed aggravated by that fact. In my simple, I dare say even `happy' mindset, I looked up at her, nodded, said "Yup." and then returned my attention to what I was doing.

She seemed to reflect on my reaction and then commented thoughtfully, "I suppose I should be happy it's only one hour and not three."

That made sense to me. So I looked up at her again, with that same dumb pleasantness, and voiced, "Yup." in my best positive, affirmative, yet non-commited tone.

I returned to the moment at hand, but she had struck a thought process in me. I was reminded of a conversation with some friends a few days ago. I began to wonder, if she knew of a way to percieve the situation to make it better for her, why she did not use this way? So, naturally, because I was in such a simple and direct mindset, I asked her why she wasn't.

The question appeared to catch her off guard for a moment. I can only suspect what kind of thoughts were running through her head. I wonder if she even saw and recognized them all. I know I have a hard time identifying all the thoughts that fly through my head in those moments of unbalance. Best I can do is try to go over them afterwards, those that I do recall. But then she just replied, distantly, "Don't know.." with a half shrug that fairly well ended the whole idea.

So much for questing forward...

Of course, there I go judging again... Anyways, it did remind me of a really good conversation I had with a couple of friends a few nights back. Like most of our really good `merging of the minds' the topics jumped around often. It certainly seemed like we opened quite a few doors though. At the very least, we browsed through more of the directory. And even though we probably didn't get to all the ones we wanted to, it was better then not bothering to look at all.

What started us off that night, and what caused me to recall this chat, was the subject of Deed. As in the trio of Thought, Word and Deed. What was brought up was the fact that you could have all these great thoughts, talk to other people about them a good deal. But without actually reaching up to perform the Deed, nothing is ever really accomplished.

On the physical level, and in the physical, form-filled world around us, this seems obvious to almost anyone. To affect something, to move something, to change something, you must put the proper effort forth. As the physical side of life is just a reflection of the mental, or emotional, or whatever you may choose to call it, the `hidden' side, the `other' side, this is also the way to affect that side as well.

For instance, when you are dwelling in a depressed state, most of us wish to get out of that, most of the time. For some people, it seems that is the place where they like to live. If so, then good for them, power to the people who take it, I guess. But sometimes you see where you are, and you desire to get out of it. You realize that this is not being very healthy to remain here for right now, and you want to find happiness. You crave it like the proverbial thirsting man who craves water. Well, at that point you know what you want, and the first of the trio has been accomplished, Thought.

Now, sometimes this Thought just appears and then it flees. Fine, so be it, damn thoughts are a dime a dozen anyways... But, sometimes you continue on with it. Maybe you find someone to share your thought with, you discover yourself vocalizing it. Or maybe you just keep it to yourself, repeating it to yourself in your head.

`Why am I not happy? Why can't I be happy? I want to be happy. I deserve to be happy!'

Whatever you personally choose to say is your own thing obviously. Regardless, either way, at this point you are beginning to gather some kind of energy around yourself by repeating this thought. This is the second part, Word.

The final step is next, and often, it is the hardest. With all this growing energy surrounding you, sometimes the Deed just comes. More often then not though, especially when dealing with our emotions and states of mind, just completing the Thought and repeating the Word aren't enough. You must take the energy, your energy, and form it into a Deed, a decissive effort, to attain that which you desire.

Desiring, hoping, is not quite enough. Sometimes you absolutely must! put forth alot, maybe even all, of your energy to manifest something you need in your world.

It amazes me how much someone might want something or want to do something, but then when you ask them, "Will you make a sacrifice to do this thing?" the answer is a whole-hearted, "Well, it depends..." or "To an extent, I guess... "

That is the epitome of indecision. The Slayer of Dreams.