I was born into a this world forced to live the way others wanted me to, and was forced to do things others wanted me to. Now I am being reborn into a world that I want to live in, living the way I want to. But I feel like a baby in this new world. I feel like I need some guidance.
I had many teachers to help me along the way. They've taught me to accept who I am, to live in the present, to dicover my talents, and most importantly, to love myself.
I'm hungry for a different learning in my world. A learning that will take me on a different journey. I don't know how to ask or who to ask. Like other things in my new world, I hope my new teacher will come along and I will know what to ask.
The teachers are so important in my new world. They have to be ones that will encourage me to grow, not someone who wants me to pay a price for the teaching.
My new journey is a scary and isolating one right now, but I have great hopes that along the way it will become a joyous one and one filled with good friends.
We all have choices to make in our lives, and for the first time in mine I will be making choices that are right for me. There will be many people who will be angered by my choices, but I am not responsible for their feelings, they are! They don't need to be in my world.
There was a time in my life when I thought being special meant that I was expected to fill someone else's needs. Being special was something I didn't want to be anymore. Now, during my healing, I have found out what special people are.
These people came into my life when I needed them the most. They accept me the way I am. They support me in my decisions and show me that I can be a special person without having to pay for the privilege. They have been there for me in my lowest times, helping me to feel good about myself again. They have been there in my happy times, when I have overcome hurdles and made advances. They know a lot about me, and they still love me. They have showed me that being special is truly a good thing, and I thank every one of them for that.